“It’s not whether you get knocked down; it’s whether you get up.”Vince Lombardi
Hey, how have you been? I know I’ve been quiet and not my usual self lately. But I can explain if you’ll take me back… Pretty please?… Awww, fanks xxx Okay, I’ll come clean and explain what’s been going on.
Me trying to hide from my need to run
I cracked. I cracked hard. Honestly, I considered for a long time whether I wanted to continue in the sport. Everything has been changing for me with moving to Cardiff and starting a new job. Both of those things I found draining, stressful, and even with all my previous motivation I wasn’t sure I wanted it anymore.
I just couldn’t see how I was going to be able to train to the same level I had been before. I knew I couldn’t be in the sport and be mediocre. This got me down so much, I wasn’t myself for a while.
It felt like all of my hard work had been for nothing after I dropped out of inter-counties xc squad. Being in that race had been a massive target for me for so long…. and I had to let it go. It’s literally one race but to me it felt like way more. It’s mad, running is just a HOBBY but… I dunno, I just hate not being the best I can be and the injury had taken it out of my control.
I hope so. I really hope so. My hip still isn’t 100% but it’s definitely good enough to train on. I have done a session, and for the effort I was actually moving very well. The shitty hours I had done on the bike had just about kept some fitness together and has given me a decent base to rebuild.
I have entered Cardiff Bay 10K (29th March) which was difficult for me. I have always wanted to improve and in the 3 years I have been running only 1 race have I not PB’ed. Barring a major miracle I have to assume I won’t PB in this race. But I am going to use it as a sighter. There are always bigger things to come.
How it felt with some time out of the sport
It wouldn’t be a weekly recap without me telling you my training 😉
Monday – 30min easy bike, 40min easy treadmill
Tuesday – 2.1 miles WU, 3x6mins (2mins), 2.0 miles CD
Wednesday – 9.3 miles easy @ 7:10min/mile
Thursday – 10.3 miles steady treadmill
Friday – REST
Saturday – 1 hour steady @ 6:20min/mile
Sunday – 13.1 miles @ 6:25min/mile
Totals – 56.6 miles and 6hrs 54mins of activity
I am going to return with the blog (again hopefully turns out I’m lazy) but only do it once a week. Sorry fo the boringness I just felt like I needed to explain myself and I couldn’t act like nothing happened
Lots of love,